Some people may have noticed I have changed some things I stated about myself across the wiki, like my signature or my userpage. I just wanted to explain why.
Please note this blog post contains conversation of species dysphoria, unsupportive family, identity crises (or crises in general) and negative shift triggers, which can be upsetting to some. After the cat and dog header is where it begins. Thank you and please exit if any or all of these topics make you uncomfortable or upset.
Recently I've been having lots of species dysphoria and shifts, such as whenever I begin to be stressed and my animal self begins panicking as well. It's been really hard for me lately, especially with unsupportive parents. I haven't told them I'm an alterhuman but they are aware I do quadrobics and I even tricked my mother into getting me masks. However, they both don't seem like the type of people to come out to just yet, and after the years have passed with me identifying as transgender or non-binary, they haven't even tried to help me when I was trying to understand what was wrong with me or why I didn't feel like I was in the right body.
I have always struggled with a bad body image, identity crises and the like. It took me months to finally awaken as a therian, and my first theriotype was a lamb, as some as you may know. I believed that, in a past life, I was killed by a wolf who killed my mother as well. And believed this for a while.
Until not enough things lined up one day when I had my first phantom shift. My tail was longer than a lambs. After that, I felt like I was wrong in some way. I felt a mix of fright of wolves but mainly more of an anger for farmers or farms in general.
After about 3 or 4 weeks of this going on, I stopped and started researching again. I felt more like I was a larger animal and not a small one. My first thoughts were a wild canine like a coyote or a ocelot or leopard. After some time, I ironically began questioning a wolf theriotype. Having more canine-like shifts, being more into non-vegan foods like chicken legs or bacon, and accidentally doing wolf vocals from time to time.
I remember laying on my bed in confusion when the name timber wolf came to mind and I found myself spending the rest of the day researching timber wolves. Despite never really being related to the state despite having some family there, I have always been obsessed with Missouri (USA). According to some reports, there were some timber wolves who originally used to roam Missouri, but they were exterminated from the state under legal request, yet might re-appear. I'm not sure if my theriotype has any relation to this, but I will keep researching and see if it's true.
I'm still figuring out what happened or how I died in my past life, or if I even have one. I know this is all natural but it's hard, so I just wanted to be open and let you all be aware. I will update if I ever discover I have another or a different theriotype, or even kintype, and I hope to see you all soon. Goodbye and have a nice rest of your day or night.
BRRNANA !! Timber Wolf Therian August 2023 - (talk)